kaiso, take in one of my girls just told me she was pregnant for the second time? freaals, the first time appearently she had a miscarriage because she drank too much at 3 months pregnant.. honestly, you knew you were pregnant & yet you still decide to kill God's creation? & im not gonna mention her age, grade.. whatever.. but shes young.. main point, thats like a baby HAVING a baby. messed up freals. & the guy she did it with isnt even planning on supporting her & his child THE F***?! naah, thats really messed up, i honestly thought the first time you knew you were pregnant, you woulda stopped all these nonsense, OBVIOUSLY i was wrong, im sooooo mad at you at the moment choose the right path for once kay? cool.. Good luck with youur lifee.. & i hope you dont kill another one of God's creation.

So there was this boy, and there was this girl,
their love was the biggest in the whole wide world.
at least that's what was thought, until one night,
that they had to endure such a terrible fight
he was never the cheater, just selfish and cruel,
you know the average to drop out of school.

It only took a month, for her to fall for his tricks,
because he said she's the only one that he would pick.
That she was his everything, the part of his soul,
and that she was the only one that ever made him whole.

Yet after he got what he wanted, he sat up and left,
With nothing of their love to ever be kept.
she broke out in tears, 'cause he wasn't coming back,
and she tried, and she tried, to keep her heart intact.

There was a side of her heart telling her the wrongs,
and a side of her heart sayin' "you gotta be strong"
but still she remains crying, hurt so very deep,
with nothing better to do but grieve and weep.

He left her drowning, sinking in these tears,
to put up with sorrow for all these years,
and no one in the world, will ever understand,
how truly and drastically she's been hurt by this man,
but one day she will heal, and again learn to breathe,
and be sworn to another, who will never ever leave.

She'll be happy once more, and she'll never start to cry,
because the man that's gonna love her, will never say goodbye.
-Isabella Jusko

Incredible isn't it? I find it so, she's such a good poem writer, then again, anyone could be a good poem writer if they have something strong enough to inspire them. & well, i dont know if she's just naturally that good, or she was inspired to write like this, I use to be able to write deep poems a couple months back, I dont know why I stopped.. Actually it was ethier this week or the last when I ran across my old notebook filled with poetry, meeh.. in my opinion I was alright, not professional or anything. So this year, one of my goals is to let my poetry writing grow, & have a new note book filled with brand new poems, & by the end of the year, I plan on doing a compersion whether or not I actually improved. Wish me luck (yn)

kaiso, I guess it was obvious that I didn't post how my day went yesterday, but.. I have a reason for that =] I was uber tired. As I said I left around 7.00AM, & I was in no mood to move around at the time what so ever. Until I got to the beach, we found a nice picnic area, so we unloaded our things, put a tent up in case later anyone wanted to sleep, & when all that was done, we docked our boat, & took it for a spin. The water was really calm, until of course I took hold of the wheel, waves were everywhere =] I think it was around 1 or 2 o'clock when everyone else arrived, I guess the kids werent really all that hungry seeing as the first thing they did when they got outta that car was run to me hug me & ask me if we can go swimming at the beach. So we did, for about an hour, then we went back on shore to eat. We had burgers, hotdogs, & my tito went to the snack bar to buy a big plate of fried, they cooked fish which i could have because im allergic to it.. & so on, it was like a feast. hahah, everyone took a little break for about half an hour, talking playing cards bulding sand castles, yadda yadda. Then all the adults fell asleep? =S LOL, so everyone was bored, except for one of my tito's he was up, he suggested to go out on the dock to get the boat & go tubbing, all the kids were excited, of course, we made the older cousins go first, & I got to drive the boat, because boats make bigger waves =] so what I did was go uber fast, but not fast enough to fall off just yet, then I went over my waves, to create a huge bump. Our tube seats three people, so the person who sits in the middle gets the most bounce, as soon as they went over the waves, Mark(the one sitting in the middle) fell off. LOLOL, it was funny, he wasnt hurt or anything so thats good. Next, my tito was all "Whoa, you drive faast, wanna race?" So, how could I pass up an offer like that? We got the jet ski's put the boat away & ran a quick race, the only race I lost.. ever BECAUSE HE CHEATED, & because hes a meanie he didnt wanna take a rematch.. Then we put the Jet ski's away & brought the boat out, & took it for a spin. & since the beach itself were way to crowded.. we went to one of those islands & swam along those shore lines, & it was a really fun family moment, by the time we came back everyone was awake, my cousins & I ate again.. we chilled for a bit, my titas & titos went out to use the boat since they didnt get to go on yet, yada yada blablahblahblah. & we eventually headed back home around, 7ish, & didnt get home until 9 because of traffic & what not.. (n) The verdict on how much fun yesterday was.. is hands down amazing, I made a new friend had the time of my life, ate good food, spent time with the cousins.. Yesterday was the best, I wish more days like that happened this summer before I head off to highschool.. =]

yeaaah son, LOLOL. so yesterday.. i was supose to go to the beach right? buut, we didnt end up going just because my boat wouldnt start what so ever, i was totally bummed that we couldnt get to go. so the whole day yesterday my daddy was fixing it, & guess what? i think my daddy has magical powers because IT'S FIXED! oh & yesterday was also my tita Jenny's erm.. 39th birthday? Yeah, 39th birthday.. so obviously we went, ate food had fun drank a little, yuup i said drank, everyone drank, i mean everyone.. even children, well i lied. Not like children children I mean like, me, nick had a bit yeah yeeno. like us? hahah! my tito rex was totally buzzed, it was halarious he wanted to give his 2 year old daughter beer smart of her she pushed it away hahah!. blahblahblah.. anyways, my mommy asked my tita's if they wanted to go to the beach tomorrow, turns out.. they already had plans to go to the beach tomorrow, funny no? & whats even funnier in my opinion.. is that its the same beach. Since my fam is going in the early morning i dont know why? maybe around 7? or 8? we're supose to find a spot to hold down until my cousins come & such & such. They said they would come around. erm, later in the day just because its a sunday, so of course. That meaans church, my family doesnt go to church on sunday's that much anymore..? Its more like every monday, to pray to our mother of perpetual help. Also known as Mother Mary. So yeah, Tomorrow should be filled with fun fun fun, a day with my cousins.. sound exciting doesnt it? I was gonna bring Rachael.. but it was last minute. & I didnt know whether her daddy would let her come.

Gah, yesterday was so flop, I was supose to go to so many places, if the beach plan backfired, which it did. TOTALLY. First it was bretts field jam, which i found is illegal to have! but.. its brett, what are you gonna expect. sucha badass..(n) but i forgot where & how to get there, plus i heard you had to paay? eerrrks, faaack that. Next I was gonna mission to Toronto to celebrate Ading Gregory's 14th birthday at earl bales, that was a fail to, because.. my plan was to actually take a nap before i left to toronto, so.. i slept around.. 1 I didnt wake up until 5 which was the time I was supose to be heading home = whaack! then i woke up to my moms voice saying, Anak! we're going now, & i completly forgot about Tita Jenny's birthday bash, & i wasnt ready..
Goodness! so i had to get ready in 15mins, pluus i was totally not in to mood to move. meeh, but once i got there, it was worth the rush. I'm soo soo sooo excited for tomorrow, I get to drive the Jet Ski alone this time, well.. I plann on blogging later on today about how my day went, so i guess.. Until later on tonight you wont be hearing from me =]

LOLOL. so, im on the phone with my so called 'bestfriend' Jaggi aka DRUGGIE aka JAGGSTUUH, aka Jag Gui. Thas whaddap, and im bored(n) he sucks at entertainning, oh wait, im supose to be writing something positive, take in how everything im typing im saying aloud. gash im so werid. anyways this is about jaggi not me. SO, as i write this blog i shall be asking him question & typing the question itself, and the answer he gives on this little thingy right here, just because i havent updated in a while =] kay. here we go..

Conversation begins.

Q: would you rather, wear a thong on the beach, or speedos errected?
A: whatta gay question im not answering that thats a bullshit question..FAIL.

Q: so, jaggi, would you rather, flick your bean, or someone elses bean?
A: how the fuck are you comming up with these questions? what gay ass questions, im not answering these questions?

Q: erm.. would you rather, sex on the beach? or traditional on the bed?
A: Thats an actual good question. umm? *5minutes later >.<* sex on the beach, some exotic shit man.

Q: Indian girl? or Filipina girls?
A: depends, how they act, whos less of a bitch (Y)

Q: the UGLIEST woman you've ever seen in your life, whos rich as fuck? or the sexiest woman your eyes laaid on & poor as shit?
A: Sexiest woman whos poor as shit

*Jaggi says BRB because he's a dick face.

Q: Why sexiest? Why not Richest?
A: Because my bitch doesnt need money

Q: Would you rather fuck the love of your life & not remember it? or Let the love of your life know you love them, but they have no feelings for you what so ever?
A: gah, thats a really good question, fuck shit. repeat it again? =S I'd prolly tell them. actualy.. meh. i dont know(n) this is a hard one, are we done with this blog shit?

Q: Would you rather, have a black womens ass with cellulite? Or, Thick jiggly thighs with stretch marks?
A: WTF?! =P ill go with the thighs.. *sighs* i guess..(n)

NEW GAAME!

*jaggi says in indian accent. whard is dis game? ward is it? =S
( Rules of game are explained...)

Jaggi starts: here we go..

Once upon a time

kso, this was my postive *jaggi says ok there positive my ass that what it is* note about my so called bestfriend jaggi , & yet while i type im still reading it aloud. whatever, hoped you enjoy this boring segment of my blog<>

See this? watch it, enjoy it, love it =]
if not the video, then at least the song. k?cool

UGH! omg, why do people binrg me into this, like.. all i did was warn her who's phony & who's fake, truuly & she comes at me assuming that im part of the people whos talking shit ?! woow, people try & do nothing but tick me off these last couple daays I HATE IT! i wanna be that hyper active girl who makes peoples day, not the girl who i've been lately, telling everyone to fuck off just because someone's really getting on my nerves for doing nothing! like wtf? & i hear shes tryna get her boyfriend in it to? is shee ok? mind fighting your own battles? cause the more peopel you add, the more people the people hate you will add, & im pretty suure if you combine them all, your out numbered. I really hope she reads this, because she needs to know whats comming at her, especially from me if she doesnt fix things right now, OMG this really gets on my nerves. oh & the thing is, i have to deal with this girl for 4 years next year when i start highschool, because we're in the saame class together FUCK! likee, people keeping saying this & this about her, I'm not gonna lie. I see the change in her, but that doesnt have to do with me, so, a favor was asked to me, & i accepted it, so NOW this girl thinks im starting shit?! WHOAAA THERE BUDDY! you dont know me one single bit, im not soft to make up stories just to get at yoou szeeeen?! kay cool. i dont need, fucking facebook to tell you that i dont like you, FUCK i could simply call your bitch ass self up & tell you i dont give 10 fucks abouut you! I have the fucking guuts to get @ someone on the reals, rather much hide behind a story, hoping someone will back me up. BITCH! y'already knoow, telling my girl to get the fuck at you, & when she does you dont reply for shit ! pussy mo'fuckaa, speak a word keep to your word. I can stand alone in a fight just letting you know, wanna know why im telling you, SO YOU CAN GET THROUGH YOUR FUCKING HEAD THAT IM STRAIGHT LEGIT! get like me, ohoh! & yeeno you wouldnt be the girl you were now, if you havent done the things you've done in the pass, like hmm.. lets see , LIE ABOUT YOUR AGEE! to probably more than half of the people on contact list, or BITE other peoples styles on vibe, or RANDOMLY ADDING PEOPLE to meet new friends. & i seen you tryna make that girl feel bad because she 'randomly' adds people, you saying how you find it useless & what not. YOU DID THE SAAAME SHIT ABOUT 1-2YEARS AGO HYPOCRITE so tape ya mouth up & stop running shit, get my name outta your mouth cause it's not a dick, get at something real! I ain't no fool, yeeno this whole topic, i talked about you. HOEBAG, straight goods ma, you better solve something between you & I before i get serious in your faace aye?! pnd's just around the corner, you dont know me, nor whats gonna be comming your way.

kayso, this past friday was probably the last time i get to see Lionel since hes moving all the way to pickering (n) gaah i still cant belive your leaving me&alisha, this makes me soo sad, at least you got a new place to chop girls no? LOL toronto is getting boring for you is it not? haha im still gonna laugh at you if there are no girls to chop, you would have to find a new hobby, laalaa, so yeah friday was nothing but FUNFUNFUN! because you made it funfunfun LOL, gosh bestfriend i love you =] so, you better not flop on me at PND or else friday wouldaa been the last time i see you gaa! we dont want that happening now do we? lalalaaawls. well i hope you WAIT ! if your moving to pickering how are you supose to go to your work? =O are you gonna find a new job? whoa, thaat sucks.. your 4 years of hard work & becoming a manger gone to waste no ? haha im so mean to you, gosh. i dont know how you put up with me, whatever. imaa miss you buumface ! x) fam always